Freshman year is coming to a close… What have I really gained from this year?
I don’t know if I gained any skills drawing-wise. If I calm down and take a hella long time, I can churn out good pieces. If I’m trying to finish quickly, it looks okay, but not at a level where I can consider myself an Art Major. (cue unartistic people telling me nooo your drawings are amazing- thanks, really but I want to be better <3) I learned a bunch about design, kinda. Not really. It’s an aesthetics thing. If you can make it look nice, and make sure there aren’t any glaring holes in the formatting, it’s ‘design’. It’s ‘art’. I don’t like sculpture. Never again. Next semester I have to take ‘Visual Culture and Literacy’ so… maybe I’ll get a better appreciation of art there. Or not. The problem is though, that I probably would’ve done this level of art before I came to USC anyways…
In terms of writing, I doubt that I’m going to be a good writer. I can barely form coherent arguments anymore. HAHA. Writing 140 taught me that I suck at writing essays because I consistently got B-, and never improved my grade. Actually I think I got one B later on and my first essay was a B+… but in the end my grade was a B- SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. That was a dampener. And this semester in my other class that requires papers… NOPE. The only ego-booster was my research paper for GE6, where I got the one 10 out of the hundred people in the class.
I made some friends, two really good ones from my WRIT140. <3 They’ve introduced me to (most of?) their friends too, so I kind of know more people than I would’ve otherwise, especially since I live in an apartment, not a dorm. Have a bunch of -we’re in the same class so we’re friendly acquaintances but probably not going to keep this acquaintanceship after its over- friends. Got closer to MV friends that I didn’t expect to over my ‘tree’ group. Or maybe that’s simply because I don’t really talk to the ‘tree’ group online, so during college when I can’t meet up with them in person I don’t talk to them. Such is life. And on the other hand, got called cute by random guys. :| High school did not prepare me for this. Ugh. And trying to figure out what crushes are yep. Also I got to know my family better too! With my cousins in LA for work or school, they’ve taken me out a few times and I learn all this stuff about the family that I didn’t really pay attention to before (as a kid- don’t listen to this stuff haha…).
And I think I’ve become a little bit more confident! :) I can say NO sometimes, and I can hack it alone at events (it’s lonely and sad though). I’m trying to be dedicated to a club (running for board!), I’ve made non-Asian friends, non-freshman/same year friends, and gotten to know a little bit of what it’s like to party (second-hand knowledge).
I’ve gained experience, I guess, that’s all I can say. Last year I was pretty apprehensive about coming, even after visiting campus. Debating between here, some UCs and Ringling (art). But there’s no questioning what-ifs. I don’t regret coming to USC. After all, I met Tom Felton here. ;)
